Love is far from me

This is the only blog that is quite quiet

Is he the one

Can you believe me that i change from a person
full with passion and now
not fully to say that i do not have any passion but
juz that the passion dies away
and yeah
everything is fine
it is in the healing stage that i believe myself can do it
on my own this time
since when it is not on my own though

Why i cant even feel my heart?
although i can feel it beating right here
in my chest
but
when it beats
the pain comes
lub dup lub dup
and
the pain comes wif every beat

I din really feel my own heart
how long is it
i did not even feel the hapiness
flow through me
i do not know
wat is the feeling anymore
i think
that feeling is gone
long time be4
i even became me

What had just happened to both of just
just 2 days and everything is changed
do you even know how do i feel
you do not know right?
and how can you treat me like this
do you know something that you are not suppose
to be knowing
do you know that you hurt me
do you know?
do you know??
do you know??
i forgave you for what you have done
and i decided to do what i had decided
i deleted ur msn account from my list and
i also deleted ur phone no
just as if i dun noe who u r
and i never ever knew you be4 in my life

Its been a long time and i do miss it
the time that is......
totally
my heart ache and where are you??
shouldn't you be right here???
shouldn't you be patting my head and say its ok sweetheart??
shouldn't you???

imagination wilds my mind

y cant u juz wrap ur arms around me and let me feel that u are here??

I am lost
totally.....


in my own imagination
i think......


should i leave it
or
make myself
even force myself
to love myself more
to even love others

Someone came to me and lean against me
his eyes caringly ask me
are you ok with it??
dun tell me ok! I know that u are not ok......
He let me hold his hands
let me fall asleep against his chest
let me cry

ley me say whatever i wan to say
someone who will kiss my forehead and say
dun worry i will be here with u...

and actually its juz all dream

To me today...
i do think that
it is something
that u cant miss it in your whole life
it doesn't mean
that u must forget the love between
friends and family
but
i think sometimes
love is the most efficient medicine
for everyone.

A friend has juz told me that
she is out of a relationship
and the 1st taste of being single again
is the taste of freedom

but my heart did asked me
actually what is the 1st feeling out being in love??
rather than what is the feeling of single??

the taste of love is totally unignorable rite??
i guess so....

why cant u juz leave me alone????
why cant u juz not bother me????
why u arent here yet????

oh my......

i really hope that u r here
right now.......
so that

nevermind.....

Where are you??
I really hope that u can really be here by my side
to adore me
to held me in ur arms
to give me moral support

I really hope that u will be here.....
so that when i am sleepy
there is a shoulder for me to sleep on
when i am worried
there is a place in ur arms that belongs to me

but i know that
although u are far from me
u will still love me
rite??

Juz new
Juz fresh
Juz everything for the new year